I feel like all I can think about and write about is how tired I am, how frustrated I am with school and how miserable I am. And I am all of those things. To the point that I started exploring the idea of switching degrees – to a degree where I would only have 1 class left to take and then I would be ABSOLUTELY finished – and where I could drop the two Quad B courses that I’m scheduled to start in 2 weeks – freeing up a lot of my time. As it stands now, I have 3 classes left this semester, 5 classes remaining (4 “hard-core” courses and one “capstone seminar”), plus an internship plus a thesis. Oh how tempting that idea is….oh how tempting. I even emailed someone at Trinity with questions about doing this…that’s how tempted I am.
My big question, though, is would I really be happy with a Master of Arts in Christian Studies as opposed to a Master of Divinity. Obviously the MDIV carries more weight in academic circles, but really, am I doing this to be an academic? No, I’m not. I’m doing this for self edification and I really don’t need to have the MDIV letters after my name – I’ve accomplished just about all that I set out to do in this second, superfluous degree, so why, oh why, am I suffering like I am?
It might just be that I don’t want to be THIS CLOSE to the MDIV and not achieve it – I think it might be something that I would regret in the future, but would I really? What are your thoughts, oh mysterious people who read my blog? Please chime in and let me know. Would you think less of me if I “settled” for the MA/CS? Or do you think I would think less of myself if I did so?
One thing is for SURE – if I do stick out this semester and finish the two Quad B courses and the one all-semester course – they would all be FINISHED – SIGNED, SEALED and DELIVERED kind of FINISHED – on May 2nd. Which means….that I would have a completely free and clear, mind-blowing relaxing and rocking time in Maryland! That is one thought that will keep me going, for sure!